I felt like such a slut fantasizing about this and desperately wanted it to happen. The ideal situation I thought of was finding a well hung stranger in some isolated place, where I ended up on my knees hungrily sucking him off, and eventually being leaned up against a wall or bent over doggy style to take his thick cock up my ass. The stories I read seemed unrealistic, and I couldn't imagine stuff like that actually happened in real life. Whenever I was in a public bathroom I curiously checked the stalls for a gloryhole, but never found one. I would have loved to come upon a gloryhole with a big anonymous dick sticking through, waiting for some attention. Other stories I saw were about gloryholes in public places. My favorite was (and still is) about a married guy who met a guy in a sauna during a business trip. I read a lot of stories here on Literotica about straight or curious guys hooking up with random guys they met. I was never attracted to men, neither their faces or their bodies, there was just something about a big dick that made me want to feel it in every way. But no matter how many times I felt embarrassed, and no matter how many times I tried to distract myself, when I was horny I kept thinking the same thing: I wanted to be face to face with that dick, I wanted to suck it, I wanted to get fucked. This scared me a little and often made me ashamed of myself, so I would try to focus more on girls and straight sex. I then slowly realized I was fantasizing more about being in the girl's position than the guy's. Slowly I realized I wasn't paying much attention to the girl specifically, I was paying more attention to the cock and what she was doing with it. My dick itself is a decent size, but I loved watching videos of guys with huge cocks and tiny girls sucking them or taking them up the ass.
I was especially drawn to oral and anal videos with big dicks and big cum shots. In my spare time, which I had a lot of, and when I didn't have a girlfriend, which was often, I would often cruise the Internet and watch porn. I knew I was straight, but never considered myself very masculine or macho. I was pretty short (for a guy), with a boyish face. I was pretty timid and shy, with a small-framed and smooth build. I had a couple girlfriends, and a few sexual experiences with them, but I was still a virgin. When I was in high school I loved being surrounded by cute girls all the time. All these stories are true and happened in the last few years. I've been writing stories about some of my experiences because I have a little spare time and it's fun. I like to say I'm straight, just horny for dick sometimes.
I'm a young guy who is in most aspects straight, but I do have a bi side.